Dream

I had the weirdest dream last night and I'm trying to remember what I can about it. I just remember bits and pieces. I remember being at a large get together. There were tons of people there and all of a sudden a group of little Chinese girls walked out and were dancing in a circle. I wish I could remember the song they were dancing to. One of them looked at me right in my eyes and I started crying. Then they went away. I remember crying and going to leave and this fairy or angel lady stopped me. I told her I had to go and she said, NO, don't you want to come with me and have a baby. So I took her hand and all of a sudden everything around me started turning into like a fairy land (WEIRD I KNOW). Flowers started blooming and people were singing. I remember everything turning into Christmas and to angels or fairies saying have a wonderful Christmas. Then everything started blooming into roses and all these red and pink and orange flowers. I don't know if this means spring or summer? Then there were pieces of satin coming down from the ceiling which obviously represented flying. I remember them talking about flying and how easy it would be (I'm scared to fly). Then coming home with my baby. Then it was over. So weird but so real. It was so so real. I don't know what it means. I don't know if it means that we will fly in spring or summer. I don't know if it means maybe our daughter was born last night or this morning actually because this dream was after 9:30 a.m. I don't know if October 15th is an important day. I just know that was the most real dream I have ever had. I know there was water flowing and just flowers everywhere. At the beginning though there were Christmas houses and snow. Anyway I wanted to write about it so I would never forget it.

There is really nothing new. We are still in the review room. The wait is still predicted to get longer. I have seen the name Ariel everywhere lately. There was an Ariel at the Drs. office the other day, then I saw a baby named Ariel. It's just pretty obvious that our baby is supposed to be Ariel.

Oh, complete change of subject but we had our Freshman pep ralley last Thursday. It's all about the 9th graders since this was their last game and last pep ralley of Jr. High. It was cute. They blindfolded them and then had the moms come out and kiss them on the cheeks and told them it was the cheerleaders. They had to guess which cheerleader it was. John-Cole guessed Abbie....LOL! It was really cute. They got gifts. Then that night we played North Sunflower at Ruleville. The game was great! We were losing in the last 30 seconds and Nathan Steritz ran the ball on kickoff all the way for a touchdown. John ran the entire way with him....LOL! I'm so proud for him. We parents acted like crazy people! So our boys won the game, the first Jr. High game won in over 3 years in the last 30 seconds and a 9th grader won it. How great for them to go out of their 9th grade year knowing they broke that losing streak! The score was 26-22! I've got some great pictures that I need to upload and post. I'm so proud of them.

Humm can't really think of anything else. Just once again pray to God to keep Ariel-Grace safe and hold him in her arms until we can get there. Just tell her how much she is loved!

Dreams and Name Change

I didn't post about Ariel's name change and the two dreams that I had that led me to changing her name.

The first dream had to do with her name, Ariel. If anyone knows me they know that I love Walt Disney World. We try to go at least twice a year and I can't wait to take Ariel there. Well one night I dreamed that we were at Disney. Ariel was with us and about 2 years old. We were in a store shopping and there was an Ariel doll. I looked at my baby girl and said
"Who is that?"
She said in her little voice "Ariel!"
And I said, "Who is Ariel?"
She said "I am mommy!"
Well that sealed the name Ariel!

The second dream had more to do with the wait times. For any of you going through this process of adopting from China you know how horrible the wait times are now and that the predictions are even worse. What turned out to be a six month wait has turned into a possibly 14-18-24 month or longer wait. It's really frustrating to not have our daughter and to not really know when we will get her.

For those of you who read my blog and know me you will know that I love my Lord Jesus very much and that I pray to him often. Well with this wait we pray daily for the Lord to help us get through this. To protect Ariel until we can get to her and to give us a peace about this wait. Well one night I was just frustrated and when I talked to God I was frustrated. I just begged God to tell me how I was supposed to handle this wait. How I needed my baby girl and she needed me. Well that night I heard God's voice so clearly in my dreams.
He said,

It is by my GRACE that you will get your baby girl!

When I woke up I knew that our baby was to be Ariel-Grace. It was a clear as the sky that she was meant to have the name Grace. Because it is through HIS GRACE that we will have our daughter.

So the name Jadeyn is gone. I'm still thinking of whether to hypen her name or not. Our daughter will be Ariel Grace Barbara Kirksey. Or Ariel-Grace Barbara Kirksey. I personally like the hypen but don't know how many people will call her the entire Ariel-Grace and how many people will call her simply Ariel.

Humm I guess that's it for today. Nothing really new on the adoption front. The rumors are all over the place like always. Some say the wait is going to speed up, some say it will slow down even more so we have no idea. John did get a pension from Cox which will end up being close to $5,000 dollars. That's great and will go a long way with more expenses that are being incured because of the wait. We still have to have our last set of shots and we also have to redo our fingerprints. From that point on we may have to update our home study which would mean more physicals and more background checks and then possibly redo the I600 to get another 171. It really gets frustrating that China won't give us a straight answer on anything. If they would just come out and say the wait will be 20 months or whatever then we could prepare. With everything up in the air we have no idea. We just wait month to month to see what the CCAA says. At least we are in the review room. I so want to see January out of the review room. That will be one giant step!!!!

Oh, I wanted to tell a cute story I heard on one of the adoption groups so that I can put it in Ariel's lifebook later on. To think the wait is frustrating for us is one thing but thinking of little children who are waiting on their brother or sister is another. They are so confused. They know they are supposed to have a baby brother or sister but that brother or sister NEVER seems to get here.

So a mother said the doorbell rang and it was UPS with a package of something she had ordered off the internet. She said she brought it in, layed it on the table, opened it and looked at it, put it up and went back to doing what she was doing. Well her 4 year old was watching the entire time and she looked at him and he was just shaking his head. She said "What's wrong?" He looked at her and said,

"MOMMY IS THAT BABY GIRL WE ORDERD FROM CHINA EVER GOING TO COME IN?"

I thought that was hillarious and so true of the way a child would think!

Anyway I do want to ask the Lord to watch over Ariel-Grace and to wrap her in his arms and love her and let her know that her mommy and daddy will be there as soon as we possibly can!

We love you our baby girl!!!!